BlossomsToBones
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..And Goodbye
1 min read
I really wish to stay in Deviant and keep posting stuff that I draw but...sometimes I am not myself and I am thinking that I would never be able to do what I love everyday. I am not even sure what I love and want to do in life anymore. So, I am taking sometime(maybe even a year) off (it's funny I just joined deviant and I'm leaving so soon -_-). So, until everything is sorted out in my head and in my life, I am going to just fly away to another land.
Goodbye!
Goodbye!
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A New Year's Wish
2 min read
A Happy New Year to Everyone!
Every new year I would make a bunch of wishes that I would want to make happen by the time the year ends. But, the truth is I haven't been able to accomplish them at all. Starting 2013 to 2015 it's been all about working and working without any passion or goal. It was a difficult time. The paychecks came but that made no difference at all. I would spend them all on my dogs. >.> Now, things are different.
After I left my job without saying goodbye (It is still killing me thinking why the hell I didn't submit my resignation and just literally ran away XO ), my life has significantly changed. I feel good mentally and I can think clearly now. I always thought (and still think sometimes) that something is wrong with me.
But, that is fine. I feel awesome now.
So, this year I am making a promise to myself. I will try my best to get where I want to be. It is not going to go as planned but I will make an effort to get up, dress myself, comb my hair without thinking what others think (I'm obsessed with how my hair looks for some reason -_-), walk with my eyes looking forward instead of the ground and do it!
Good Luck to me and everybody!!!
May all our wishes for this year happen!
God Bless Us All in our endeavors!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Every new year I would make a bunch of wishes that I would want to make happen by the time the year ends. But, the truth is I haven't been able to accomplish them at all. Starting 2013 to 2015 it's been all about working and working without any passion or goal. It was a difficult time. The paychecks came but that made no difference at all. I would spend them all on my dogs. >.> Now, things are different.
After I left my job without saying goodbye (It is still killing me thinking why the hell I didn't submit my resignation and just literally ran away XO ), my life has significantly changed. I feel good mentally and I can think clearly now. I always thought (and still think sometimes) that something is wrong with me.
But, that is fine. I feel awesome now. So, this year I am making a promise to myself. I will try my best to get where I want to be. It is not going to go as planned but I will make an effort to get up, dress myself, comb my hair without thinking what others think (I'm obsessed with how my hair looks for some reason -_-), walk with my eyes looking forward instead of the ground and do it!
Good Luck to me and everybody!!!
May all our wishes for this year happen!
God Bless Us All in our endeavors!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I joined Deviantart!
4 min read
Hi Everyone!
Honestly I thought years ago that my art was not that great to post in a site like deviant. But I'm a big girl now
and I have finally found the courage to post some of my drawings/doodles/sketches from some of my old diaries. It's great! Hehe Hope everybody never stops dreaming and persevering towards what they love the most! I feel old sometimes to have dreams and wanting to do what I've always wanted to do as a kid. Sometimes as we grow up and become adults, I feel we all stop dreaming because the reality is too harsh and too much when you are constantly told to stop wasting your time drawing. Well, in my case it was like that >.>
Anyway, everything aside, I just found my true self a few days back when (I just feel like confessing now because I've kept it a secret for so long
) I suddenly walked away from my job without even submitting my resignation letter There is no person on earth who would do such a thing. I am sad and happy at the same time. It shouldn't have ended this way but it did. But, I have never felt this way before. When I joined a firm two years ago, it was all for my ma and pa. It was horrifying. I couldn't draw because the job ate me up the whole day. I thought I lost a part of me when my hand just wouldn't move on a blank paper when I held a pencil. I stopped wanting to live.
If it weren't for the dogs (the story: my pa got a brown dog and since my ma didn't like the colour, my pa bought another white dog. And just like that we had two dogs bought without much thought about how we would grow them up!) I would have ..who knows...I really wouldn't have found a reason to stick around in this house.
We moved a lot since I was kid. Soon we would be moving again. And I really wish that everything goes well because sometimes my dad keeps telling that we cannot take the dogs with us. I think that is really bad on his part to say something like that. We already left behind a dog when I was a kid. I still cannot digest it and keep replaying the part when she was put on a truck and sent to some place. That is the reason I opposed to buying dogs but nobody listened. And now it looks like it might happen again. ;_;
Well, I didn't expect myself to write all of the above. Now I feel like deleting this post Who likes to lament about the past and be sad all the time. I don't. Life is different for different people and it all lies in how you are going to make it in the end without giving up.
Here is to drawing non-stop and never giving up on your dreams! *clink*
Wishing you all a happy and a merry christmas!!!!!!!!!
With lots of love,
Blossom
Honestly I thought years ago that my art was not that great to post in a site like deviant. But I'm a big girl now
and I have finally found the courage to post some of my drawings/doodles/sketches from some of my old diaries. It's great! Hehe Hope everybody never stops dreaming and persevering towards what they love the most! I feel old sometimes to have dreams and wanting to do what I've always wanted to do as a kid. Sometimes as we grow up and become adults, I feel we all stop dreaming because the reality is too harsh and too much when you are constantly told to stop wasting your time drawing. Well, in my case it was like that >.> Anyway, everything aside, I just found my true self a few days back when (I just feel like confessing now because I've kept it a secret for so long
) I suddenly walked away from my job without even submitting my resignation letter There is no person on earth who would do such a thing. I am sad and happy at the same time. It shouldn't have ended this way but it did. But, I have never felt this way before. When I joined a firm two years ago, it was all for my ma and pa. It was horrifying. I couldn't draw because the job ate me up the whole day. I thought I lost a part of me when my hand just wouldn't move on a blank paper when I held a pencil. I stopped wanting to live.If it weren't for the dogs (the story: my pa got a brown dog and since my ma didn't like the colour, my pa bought another white dog. And just like that we had two dogs bought without much thought about how we would grow them up!) I would have ..who knows...I really wouldn't have found a reason to stick around in this house.
We moved a lot since I was kid. Soon we would be moving again. And I really wish that everything goes well because sometimes my dad keeps telling that we cannot take the dogs with us. I think that is really bad on his part to say something like that.
We already left behind a dog when I was a kid. I still cannot digest it and keep replaying the part when she was put on a truck and sent to some place. That is the reason I opposed to buying dogs but nobody listened. And now it looks like it might happen again. ;_;Well, I didn't expect myself to write all of the above. Now I feel like deleting this post
Who likes to lament about the past and be sad all the time. I don't. Life is different for different people and it all lies in how you are going to make it in the end without giving up.Here is to drawing non-stop and never giving up on your dreams! *clink*
Wishing you all a happy and a merry christmas!!!!!!!!!
With lots of love,
Blossom
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